There's a First Time for Everything...

Firsts are never easy...

your first step... 

your first day of school...

your first crush...

your first car...

your first day of college...

your second first day of college...

your first blog...

... and they're often filled with uncertainty, insecurities, fears  

But most of the time the things you're dreading most about the firsts you're fixing to experience just don't happen.  While it might not always turn out as wonderful as you were delusionally dreaming it to be, it rarely turns out to be your worst-case-scenario.

So here I am with my first blog.  Even though several of my friends have encouraged me to start one before and even though it seems like it could be fun, I've never done it, until now.  But now I'm required to.  

And I have no idea what to write about for this first one.

You know that old technique that everyone always says about envisioning your audience in their underwear when you have to make a speech so that you'll feel more comfortable?  Well right now I feel like I'm the one in my underwear.  

I have nothing profound to say at the moment.  I have no words of wisdom.  I have no great revelations.  Nothing.  Nada.  Zip.  

But sometimes I guess that's part of the importance of firsts.  Just the fact that you get it done.  That you jump in with both feet, damn the consequences, and do it.  Firsts will happen to all us, they happen every day.  Some firsts are big, some are small, some are monumental, most are inconsequential.  But we do them, because we have to, because we want to, because they need to happen.

I sort of wanted my first post to be one of those monumental firsts.  Something profound and brilliant.  Something to make everyone go "ooooh, she's really something".  But this first seems to be one of those inconsequential firsts, those things that just happen because they need to.  And really, that's okay, because that's life, and life happens, and continues to happen, and firsts happen all along the way, every day, in every way.

Being back in school at this stage in my life isn't a first I ever expected to happen, but it's one of those times in life that you actually get to live one of those delusional dreams you've had.  It's a first, even if it's a second first.

...but there's a first time for everything, and every time is a perfect time for a first...